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First of all, I'd like to thank you to coming to my production of "Not Your All-American College Kid," written, directed and performed by yours truly, Calen Winn aka thepanthespian aka Puck aka Pan-cake.

Before we begin, I have a few reminders. Please silence, not just set to vibrate as this is an intimate space, your cellphones, pagers, watches, and anything else that might beep, squawk, or otherwise make noise, including small children. Also, please remember to be courteous and kind to the performers and your fellow audience members, profanity is allowed, but please keep all comments civil and constructive.

Finally, anything new I write will appear as a blog post, but make sure to check out my "Pre-Blog Writings" pages, linked in the sidebar, which may grow as I discover more old writing worthy of posting.

Now, sit back, and enjoy "Not Your All-American College Kid" by Calen Winn

First Love

I wrote this poetry on a camping trip immediately after the start of my first (and so far, only) relationship.





Fighting Life





salmon swim
against the stream
and as they fight
their scales gleam

and queer folk too
will have to fight
to keep alive
that inner light

don’t fight alone
together we’ll strive
to show our love
together we’ll dive

into this world
and like two doves
bring peace and joy
to once forbidden love


Flirting


joking, teasing
still serious
laughing, hiding
blushing, on a bus
knowing how
to bring a smile
flirting shamelessly
full of style

simple way
of showing love
being silly
having fun
yet even joking
meaning everything I say

You are beautiful
adorable
cute
and yes, sometimes


……

a hiding tomato


Jumping

a splash in the moonlight
just one little flash
just one salmon jumping
not quite wanting to be heard

but then comes the light
it’s a new day
many more are jumping
along this rocky stream

to get to the place
where they want to be
to find their true love
and live out destiny




Love is…

love is amazing
laughing, crying,
emotions galore

love is intense
ocean waves breaking
across many shores

love is oblivious
to gender, and preference
knowing only what’s felt in the core

lifting up,
getting down,
always wanting
leading on,
teasing us,
‘til I am at your door



the Nature of Love

nature surrounds
love consumes
crickets chirp
hearts sing
river runs
mind roams
all on one topic
you

skies shine blue
and I love you




Second Awakening

mind ever thinking
always logical

First awakening,
heart feels pain
wonders why
but knows it’s real

Second awakening,
heart feels love
brain knows why
heart knows it’s real

brains think alike
share everything
hearts feel alike
connection now
soon, snuggling



Something was Missing

life moves
I am still
something is missing
then you arrive
free me from myself

I was missing someone to talk to
who would talk to me
someone to be corny with
to flirt with
I was missing somebody to love
now I got somebody to love



of Trees and Lovers

trees grow up
solid next to each other
over time branches intertwine

so two people may
rooted in each others lives
slowly intertwine

and if one is chopped down
the stump will stay behind
as a reminder
that those two
were once intertwined



Waiting

sitting in line
a boat comes in
earlier than needed
but it’s fine
the line moves
you don’t get on

the next boat comes
better than the last
takes you and only you
life is good


Water or Love

wading in
surrounded by new water
screams of shock
become giggles of pleasure
playing in the ripples
flirting with them
moving slowly
getting oriented
charging ahead
“This is fun”
running out
water is too cold
“But it’s so fun”
right back in
            Even though it’s new and scary
            still coming back for more